Secrets.

I saw a journal on here where they posted a secret everyday, and I guess thats what this is.

Day #1. -  I hate society and everything about how the system works. It just doesn't make any sense. It's all a bunch of bullshit.

Day #2. - I can't stand silence. Without some music playing, even if I don't like it Just noise or something else to think about.. I feel desperately alone. I feel fear.

Day #3. - I feel like I was born in the wrong generation. Don't like music now a days, don't like how ppl dress, How they talk and everyone on the fucking computer or taking all the time. All the shit ppl laugh at is just virtual shit they see from the internet. Get the fuck outside and play some fucking street hockey!

Day #4. - Last night my eyes were pouring and my heart was bleeding.

Day #5. - There is nothing I love more then adventure. I love the outdoors and hiking and blh blah. I can't wait till the summer so I can go to  places xD

Day #6. - No one knows me and right now it's like i never had the friends I had. And it really sucks Kuz before I was just used to it. ya know? I didn't need friends, but now I know what love feels like and to be wanted and people think your funny. You had confidence before. Right now you don't and some of the friends I lost were my fault I pushed them away kuz i thought they'd leave too. I thought when ever I left it would hurt them to much. And I don't know.. It feels good to write down feelings that I can't normally tell anybody.

Day #7. - I just shaved my head and i love it.

Day #8. - I am such a lil kid. I would rather spend a day doing idiotic things and geting hurt then going shopping.

Day#9. - I feel lonely.

Day#10. - I'm starting to lose a lot of my apetite.

Day#11. - If the world ended I'd want it to be zombies!

Day #12. - I need an adventure soon.

Day #13. - Sometimes I drink the olive/pickle juice

Day #14. - Last night I took half of a pill to go to sleep.. I literally couldn't wake up this morning..  Didn't go to school though xD

Day #15. - I really like healthy food, buuuut this week, I am SO learning towards all types of junk food.

Day #16. - My life dream is to be a photographer and adventurer for National Geographic. But I think I'm going to join the Coast Guard.

Day #17. - Today I woke up with some cramps are so so painful, They're making me cry. It unbearable and i had to take 5 pills just to make it okay.  And still my mom just said go to my room, suck it up.. and starts a cussing war with me. It's so hard not to hate her.

Day # 18. I was reading all these notes that I've saved from all of my old friends.. They were all saying how awesome I was.. Or am I guess.. How much they loved me. Why can't I see what they saw? And why can't I be that anymore?

Day # 19. - Last night I emailed Henry Rollins and was so happy with the thought that he might read it, or write me back. I even had a dream that seemed so real. I was even saying that it was a dream in my dream I thought it was a dream. I saw his message pop up and my heart felt so so great It about burst with happy juice xD It ended before I got to read it tho >.<

Day # 20. - Today is Friday, It is the 8th of Feb. 2013. Henry Rollins Messaged me back today. At 5:15. Today was perfect, that put it over the top and I feel so great right now. feel amazing.

Day # 21. - Life seems just really good right now. I bought me a nice vinyl today. Found Richard Hell on the computer and is now up in my favorites. and I listened to Jello Biafra and the Guantanamo School Of Medicine's new record, Which I LOVED. Music is great. It's so amazing.  and today was great too. Ahhh joy joy. I wish I could go to one of their concerts.

Day # 22. - I'm hungry and theres nothing to eat >.>

Day # 23. - Todays Henrys Birthday. Hes 52. I sure hope his day is going better then mine. Today I'm depressed. I've been needing a break. I'm so jaded.

Day # 24. - my weekend was alright I didn't feel to bad, School was alright today. But my mom made my morning suck.But school was cool and after school I got to play with my friends lab puppies. But now my dad has me feeling like shit. I was going to take him and wyatt out to eat. Why the fuck do they have to me feel like shit. I just try to be happy. I'm sick of being here. The hole car ride back, "I am nothing. I'm going to amount to nothing. I'm so immature and you don't even know a thing." I'm sick of this.

Day # 25. - I look good.

Day # 26. - I'm starting to have a growing feeling os disgust.

Day # 27. - I've moved into my fathers house, It stinks, He's a jerk. Joy joy. I feel like I'm going to puke.

Day # 28. - I'm quite hungry.

Day # 29. - Henry Rollins is my hero! and I think I should start puting dates on these.